Someone's watching over me....

10 April 2009

"...i wish sum day i cud xpernce sum tin lik tat...i mean feelin gr8 abt ur achvmt...i long lost tat tin..."

These words of Neeru I'll never forget. We all lost tat tin long back. Now we know what the world can do. Nothing we do compares with it. We just need to learn that we should compare what we did with the best we can do, not anyone else. 

On this day, I have to accept there's something worthy in me yet. I've had a great start in life. But then I realised what's great for me, wasn't great for the world. That's where I lost it, where we all lose it. My Ranju, Neeru.. the list goes on. But then someone's watching over me...

During my 6th semester, we had our campus placements. It was a time of great depression and I was lamenting about the meagreness of our existence. On August 23rd, I heard that Thoughtworks was visiting our campus. Its my Rohit anna's company. R A is my ultimate role model, IIT IIM chettan. So obviously I wanted to get in TW. But guess what, those guys had 5 rounds. 5!! I was so depressed because there was no way I could get in, it being a software company. All I know is the 'basics' of cpp. I'll never forget those two days: my name got lost from the list, how I crossed the second round (I can still hear Jolly calling my name), those interviews, that final photo. And Neets comment during my treat: "Now are you happy with the meagreness of your existence?!" Love you Neets for those words... That was the last time I felt proud of my achievement. It wasn't mine as much as all my friends'. But its mine to be called mine. 

Then there's the CAT results. That's what made Neeru make the comment in the first place. Jump for joy, I did. As unexpected as it was, as guilty as I felt, I felt a tinge of pride for what I did. And now IIM C. IIMs happened only to the greatest people I know. And now it has happened to me too. Though my tendency is to reduce the value of IIMs, I know I've to accept I'm good. Or that someone up there loves me like anything. Thank you...